I want to have my cake and eat it too

Lately, I have been secretly stressing out inside this head of mine. I am 25 years old, happily married to a great guy, have a great job, but something is still missing. It's a four letter word that makes some people cringe whenever they hear it, Baby. The funny thing is that 6 months ago if you would have asked if I wanted to have kids I would have responded with, "Not right now!".

I can't grasp juggling a house, work and a husband... and a baby. Women do it everyday, but Im not sure that I would be happy with that. Justin would like me to stay at home and raise our kids, which I am happy about, because my mother was home while we grew up also. It was nice having her there.

So, whats the problem? Well, technically no problem exists at the moment, however, with my growing career it will be a lot to give up. I have established myself quite well in under a year, so in two years worth of building a clientele, I would be doing great! I dont want to feel like I am letting my bosses down or that I mislead them by not telling them that I was planning a family. In fact, whenever I first started working there, I DIDNT want kids, that's how fast life changes.
I can always come back to doing hair, and I would like to have all my children by 30.

I get super-excited when I start thinking of being pregnant. Or when I think about decorating the baby's room, or finding out the sex of the baby. Better yet, taking them to Disney World for the first time and seeing their faces light up. All of these things are what my brain has been stuffed with these last couple of weeks.

People always told me that you "just know" when you want to have kids. I guess thats true after all.

Beach girls...

Mom on the beach.
Originally uploaded by hairgeek

Are what me and my mom have become. I grew up on the beach, but now that I am older I really appreciate its relaxing and therapeutic qualities. Today we planted our matching chairs in the sand, setup our umbrella and then vegged out on all the snacks in our cooler.

Tommorow we are gonna take the surfboard out, singular because I am going to be the only one surfing. I have not surfed in a LONG time, so Im not expecting to do much more than fall and possibly get scraped up from shells on the bottom of the ocean.

I did get a chance to swim with the dolphins today, they were too far out to notice me, unfortunately. But they were there, and thats all that matters. :)

Yucky

Ever since I have stopped excercising I have felt gross. I made my way to the beach this week for the first time since summer started. The good thing about Florida are the beaches and the bad thing about Florida is finding something to wear to go to the beach.
I always put it off and just hope something will magically make it's way to my closet without any effort. It's so bad that the last time I did shop for a swimsuit, it was online and I ordered it without trying it on. If your a stick figure, this method works fine, but it doesn't for me.

I did notice that the people around me didn't look all that much better than myself though. Everyone just needs to lower their standards and we can all feel fabulous again! Anyways, I have to start exercising again for my health anyways so it will work out in the end.

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Vote and raise money!

Wow! Im going to the beach!
Originally uploaded by hairgeek

I was asked to enter my photo into the contest "Smile For Cancer Prevention" and so I did. If you have time to check it out, please do and vote for me too! I just took this picture three days ago when I was leaving for the beach.

Click the link below for amuso.

http://www.amuso.com//gameshows/trivia/SMILE-FOR-CANCER-PREVENTION-II

Day at the Beach

Bathroom is Finished!

Its pretty much complete!
Originally uploaded by hairgeek

...for the most part. :) Of course I will add things here and there but the walls and decor are mostly done now. It took me two full days to complete, but it sat there for a week until I could buy more supplies. I had threw my back out, so I had the energy today to get it done!

Im sure its WAY too girly for most people, and possibly my husband, but I LOVE it. The Rose painting was a gift from Justin on Valentines Day six years ago, so I made that the main focus of the room.

Visit my Flickr photostream for more pictures of all the goodies it has!

LifeCast on V.2.0 iPhone

Testing out the new applications on the latest version of my iPhone. So far I'm loving it!

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Sea World trip..

This past weekend me and Charity went down to Orlando to go back to Sea World. It was a blast, as usual. Crowded! But none the less... I would rather be in a crowded Sea World than sitting at home on the couch. Here is a picture I took of myself after feeding the dolphins.

More pictures up at flickr! Go check them out.

365 Fail..

I wish I could say that I could do it, but I am just not up to it. In my previous posts I talked about doing the 365 project, of posting a self portrait daily. Truthfully, I do not want to try and take a picture of myself everyday. My mornings are the only time I have, and trust me no pictures should be taken of me in my pajamas with messy hair and no makeup.
So, the 365 project is done. It was more like the 1/1 project. Which is okay... Its not for me.

My back is still in serious pain from when I threw it out yesterday. It happened yesterday morning when I was vacuuming and cleaning the house. Luckily, I got most of what I wanted to get done with done before it happened. Back pain is NO FUN. It makes you feel old, out of shape and like nothing can make it better.

Getting out of work tommorow is not an option, so I will try and make the best of it. Possibly get a massage in the morning if it will help. Wish me luck.

So long, farewell...

I am headed to Orlando, yet again. I wish I owned real estate there, because it sure would save us some money on hotel room costs. Charity(my bestfriend since 2nd grade) and I are headed to Sea World for 2 days.
I am mostly excited about trying to get some really good pictures more than anything. Of course I am excited to get a chance to catch up with Char too. We both recently had our grandfathers in the hospital, at the same time. We have a pretty strong bond that can never be broken, we have grown up together, watched each other change and found our way back to each other.
Cant wait to bring back lots of good pictures!

Day 1 [of 365]

I have been inspired to start a new photo project. You take a self-portrait everyday for a year, or however long you wish. I am going to try and branch out with them and not do the typical "Cheese!" picture, but I tend to take a lot of those, so no promises.

Mine will consist of either myself or something closely related to myself, not me just sitting there in front of the camera everyday for a year, that doesnt sound like fun.